Do you feel like you want something positive out of life but the reality of it is just out of reach? I have had that feeling more than I can count in the 6 years that I have been living on my own after my marriage ended. It has taken me 6 years and 2 months to make my dream become a reality! After i moved out of the home that I shared with my now ex-husband I lived in 3 different apartments, 2 different apartment complexes and I have worked my butt off just to get where I am today.
The first year was the hardest, getting used to being alone and having to work 2 jobs just to make ends meet. Then I got laid off of my job that I was at for 7 years due to Covid-19, I threw myself a pity party for 1 day and then got myself together to find another job. I was still working at my 2nd job but there was no way that I could support myself just on that job alone. So I got online and started looking for a job and I got very lucky to be able find a new job just 3 days after I was laid off!! I started this new job on officially on August 17th, and I had no clue that this job was going to change my life for the better!
For the last almost 5 years at my job I have worked my butt off not only with doing everything and anything that my boss had me do, which I did better than he was expecting, I have put in so very long hours with getting OT every week. I can honestly say that I LOVE my job and I LOVE the people that I work with. Having this job has been a blessing, getting laid off from my old job was a blessing in disguise so something very good came out of all the Covid-19 crap.
Now 6 years and 2 months I made my dream a reality by being able to make the biggest purchase of my life by myself! I closed on a brand new just finished being built house on April 30, 2025! I have been in my new home for almost 2 months, and I am loving making it my own! I have painted the 2nd bathroom, I have painted the guest room and have it all set up and ready for visitors, I painted my bedroom, and I LOVE all the colors that I picked out and did not have to worry about what anyone else thought about them. It is nice to be able to pick the colors that I like and want not having to compromise or just go with whatever color someone else wants.
This has been my biggest dream since my divorce, I wanted to prove to myself that I could do this without anyone helping me. My dream came through thanks to my hard work and dedication to wanting to make it come true. I wanted better for myself then living in an apartment throwing away money on something that wasn’t mine.
They say that dreams do come true and this time it did. Through all my struggles, all the tears I have cried, all the times I wanted to give up and the depression I made my dream come true. There were days that I did not think that this would happen. I have cried probably over a million tears, and I have been on the verge of just giving up more times than I can count. These last 6 years I have lost my grandmother, 2 aunts, my father, my ex-step father-in-law, a very dear friend who was more like family, & I have grown so much from the pain, and I have wiped away the tears just so I could put 1 foot in front of the other. Even though there were time when I just couldn’t keep going, I knew that I had too because my life was not over and I had so much more living to do. Also, within these last 6 years both of my daughters have gotten engaged, one will be married in December this year and the other will be married in a few years. I have so much to look forward to that I don’t throw pity parties for myself, I deal with my feelings, and I live my best life I can.
I still struggle, I still have depression, I still have that feeling that I just can’t go on, but I do still go on and I will until the end of my life comes.
As I come to the end of this post I will leave you with one statement: Nothing is impossible, dreams do come true and always remember that you are never alone there is always someone there to help you if you need it all you have to do is ask.
Living w/mental health 